Ito ang huling araw na mamahalin kita. Wala ka ng maririnig o kahit na anumang salita mula saken na mahal kita. Dahil sa 11:59 ng gabi ngayong araw na ito siguradong wala na akong nararamdaman sa’yo dahil sisiguraduhin kong nailuha at nailabas ko ng lahat, at bukas ako ay isang bagong ako na nilimot at parte ka na lang ng nakaraan ko. Pagod na akong umiyak, magtanong kung bakit nangyari at kung bakit mo ako hinayaang mawala, nakakapagod ng magtanong sa mga bakit ko na ako din lang naman ang sumasagot.Nakakapagod ng magpunas ng sarili kong luha. Nakakapagod ng magmahal ng taong di ako kayang intindihin. Tama na ayoko na at sa pagtigil ko ng pagmamahal sa’yo, kasabay nito ang pagtigil ng pagtibok ng puso ko at gawin itong bato muli. Isarado sa lahat at mawalan ng tiwala. Di muling maniniwala sa mga sasabihin mo at ng ibang tao. Walang ibang pakikinggan kundi ang sarili ko. Dahil kung mahirap akong mahalin mas mahirap kang intindihin. Salamat sa iyong pagdating, dahil don’ nakita ko at ipinakita mong wala na talagang magmamahal sa akin, wala ng makakaintindi saken at wala ng pag-asa ang mundo para sa akin.

Kasi tanga ka. Tanga na kung tanga pero mahal ko siya, kaya ako nagpakatanga kasi may mga binitiwan siyang salita, pangako at may mga sinabi pa siyang babalik siya. Kaya ako nagpakatanga.

Kasi naniwala ka. Kaya ako naniwala kasi alam ko never siyang nagsinungaling, he never broke his promises yan yung pinanindigan niya saken. Oo na accepted ko ng tanga ako, tanga na ako kasi sa dinami rami na ng nanloko saken hanggang ngayon nagpapaloko pa din ako.

Kasi akala mo mahal ka niya. Mahal niya ako at ipipilit kong mahal niya ako. Kasi yun yung sinabi niya, yun yung pinadama niya. Despite of my flaws ako pa din yung pinili niya. Oo na tanga na ako, naniwala na ako..kasi akala ko naman kasi talaga mahal niya ako eh.. siya din lang pala yung magpapaiyak saken. Sabi kasi love comes with pain, pumili ka na lang ng taong worth the pain. Worth ba siyang iyakan? Worth ba siya? Paano ba magmahal? One - sided ba lang talaga? Hindi ba niya nakikita na kaya ako nagagalit is dahil hindi niya natutupad mga promises niya? December 25 he promised na pupunta siya dito magkaaway kami nun, I was hoping na pupunta sya kasi nagpromise siya despite na may away kami. January 22 birthday niya, he also promised na pupunta siya, a week before his birthday, nag-away kami and it lead to break up. I thought may pag-asa pa, kaya nung nakipag-usap sya nung birthday niya and asking me to be his friend pumayag ako, may mga sinabi siya na nagbigay ng clues para umasa ako na babalik siya. Three days after hindi na siya nagchat, yung ibinigay niyang phone, binawi niya..(*yung phone na sinabi niyang mahalin ko, alagaan ko, wag kong papabayaan..ibinili ko pa ng charger, cases and other accessories para lang di ko mapabayaan.)…tapos nakita ko lang na ibinenta niya, sana saken na lang niya ibinenta, yun na lang yung bagay na or yung way para makausap ko siya, nawala pa. 

Ang tanga ko, kasi naniniwala ako, kasi akala ko mahal niya talaga ako.

Sabi pa niya, mag-aaway lang tayo pero hindi maghihiwalay pero bakit ganun iniwan mo ko.

Sabi niya kahit ano ka pa tanggap kita, pero bakit ganun, parang hindi naman totoo, parang may kinuha lang siya tapos fly na sa iba.

Nangako siyang hindi niya ako papaiyakin, hindi niya ako iiwan, sa sobrang dami ng pangako lahat napako. I HATE PROMISES!

Lahat lahat nawala saken, binago ko yung sarili ko para sa kanya, tapos ganito lang to natapos?

Sabi na nga ba eh, wag magtiwala.

Ano eh di naiwan na naman ako! 

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75 NSFW Asks. Obliterate me. Please ask me as many as you want

1. What tends to feel better for you, sex or masturbation?
   
2. Your 5 favorite spots to be stimulated.
   
3. Have you ever had your prostate stimulated?
   
4. Have you ever had an orgasm from anywhere other than your genitals?
   
5. Are you well-acquainted with your G-spot?
   
6. Are handjobs boring, or underrated?
   
7. Do you like having your balls touched?
   
8. Do you like having your nipples touched?
   
9. Do you like having your anus touched?
   
10. Have you ever been fisted?
    
11. Do you like mild roughness (scratching, spanking, hair-pulling, etc.)?
    
12. Do you have any kinks?
    
13. Are you into anything under the BDSM umbrella?
    
14. Do you pee in the shower?
    
15. Do you ever masturbate in the shower?
    
16. Have you had sex in the shower?
    
17. Do you like being naked?
    
18. Do you sleep partially/fully naked?
19. Have you ever to a nude beach, naked party, or other situation involving casual nudity?
20. Are you comfortable with partners seeing you nude in non-sexual contexts?
    
21. Have you ever showered with someone (non-sexually)?
    
22. Do you care if a partner sees you going to the bathroom?
    
23. Do you have naked pictures/videos of yourself? If yes, have you sent them to anyone? Are they online?
    
24. How many sexual partners have you had?
    
25. How often do you masturbate?
26. What position do you typically masturbate in (laying on back, on stomach, sitting up, etc.)?
    
27. Describe your masturbation routine, technique, etc.
    
28. What do you masturbate to (porn, smut, imagination, etc.)?
    
29. Have you ever masturbated to the point you got sore?
    
30. Your thoughts the first time you got up close and personal with the opposite set of genitals?
    
31. What kind of underwear do you normally wear?
    
32. Do you ever go commando?
    
33. Have you ever had a wet dream/orgasmed in your sleep?
    
34. How big is your penis?
    
35. Does your penis curve at all?
36. Are you circumcised or no? Are you happy with it?
    
37. Are you turned on or off by foreskin, or don’t care?
    
38. Do you find genitals physically attractive, or weird/gross, or not feel strongly either way?
    
39. Do you like the way your genitals look?
    
40. Would you be able to pick out your genitals from a lineup?
    
41. Do you like your butt?
    
42. What do you do with your pubic hair (shave, trim, wax, nothing, etc.)?
    
43. Do you care/have a preference what partners do with their pubic hair?
    
44. Do you tuck your penis a certain way (i.e. left or right) when you get dressed?
    
45. Do you have or want any genital piercings? Do you like any on other people?
    
46. What is the quickest you’ve ever brought yourself (or been brought) to orgasm?
    
47. Do you ever “edge” (repeatedly stop and start) when masturbating?
    
48. What’s the longest masturbation session you’ve had? Longest sex session?
    
49. What’s the most orgasms you’ve had in one session (of anything)?
    
50. Do your orgasms tend to be full-body, or crotch-centric?
    
51. Spit or swallow?
    
52. When you ejaculate, do you more shoot or dribble?
    
53. Is it hot or gross to get ejaculated on?
54. Have you ever had sex in a public place?
    
55. Have you ever had sex/masturbated while somebody was sleeping near you?
56. Strangest/most unique place you’ve had sex? How about masturbated?
    
57. Have you had any sexual experiences that were downright gross?
    
58. Are you particularly “vocal” when masturbating/having sex?
    
59. Have you ever been caught masturbating/having sex?
    
60. Have you had or do you want to have a threesome (or foursome, or more)?
61. Have you ever used a homemade sex toy, or a regular object as a sex toy?
    
62. Can a dildo feel as good as a penis?
    
63. What are your favorite positions?
    
64. Your most embarrassing sexual experience?
65. Have you ever had any genital injuries?
    
66. Have you ever had a sexually transmitted infection?
    
67. Do you think you’re “good” at sex, or your performance/skill could use improvement?
68. If you had the opposite set of genitals for a day, name 5 things you would do.
    
69. What’s something you like about your body?
    
70. What’s something you dislike about your body?
    
71. What body parts do you find the sexiest?
    
72. What was your most recent sexual thought?
    
73. Do you ever just play with your balls, penis, hole?
    
74. When was the last time you touched your genitals?
    
75. Do you often imagine people naked?

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